Live the moment

I feel like talking, even though I don't have much on my mind right now.

It's freezing in my house, but sunny outside.

weird how that works.

I think lately I'm starting to realize how important living in the moment can be.

Because once that moment's gone, you'll never get it back.

and one day you will want it back, but you can't have it

because it's in your past, and the only thing you can do now is move forward, and farther away from it.

I think I've known that all along, but I never really thought about it until now.

I mean friends come and go, pets come and go, lives even come and go.

I guess it's because my grandparents (whom I've been living with my entire life)

they're getting older, less able to move, harder to make decisions, behind in bills and such.

I'm afraid of losing them. like all parents (and parent figures) they get on my nerves sometimes, and other times they don't.

it's just like, what would I do without them ya know?

what's going to happen after that.

When you're living in the moment everything seems right, like you'll be able to have this forever but you can't.

my cousin just said to me the other day

"You know, when we were younger and always talking about our futures. I never imagined you'd look like this. Or I'd be doing this. or we lived where we lived."

and I replied with

"Yeah, we spent too much time looking ahead of ourselves when we should have been looking right in front of us, I suppose"

which is completly true.

Whenever I see a preteen or a kid who's going "Oh man I can't wait to grow up!"

I can't help but to tell them to enjoy it while they can, because it only gets harder.

Friends have come and gone, people have moved away and I've even lost myself along the way.

I think sometimes when I'm confused with "who I am" and "where I'm going with life" I actually lose what makes me, me.

By being confused with who I am, I lose who I am.

Whoever's reading this is probably thinking I'm crazy, and I just might be lol

this year, like every year has taught me some stuff.
and it's not over.

I'm so happy I have the friends I have. without them I don't know where I'd be.

It's the people. The people you're with that make the days worth living again.

haha the other day, some woman walked by me and told me "You know, you should act more like a lady instead of running around with all these crazy children and dying your hair different colors. It's just not right."

I was pretty offended by it for a while.

but then I thought, okay. what is HER definition of a lady?

A girl that follows all the rules, doesn't have her own opinions or creativity and no life?

I'm my own person. I never dyed my hair to get attention or to attract a certain crowd of people.

I did it because I've always been facinated with colors, and I did it because it's what I wanted to do.

people are againest it, yes. and people like it.

it's not a rebellion.

it's just who I am.

and yeah, I do plan on changing the colors every now and again.

so sue me ;D

But I guess what this whole thing was made out to say was,

you should live in the moment.

because before you know it, that moment is gone.

and you can't get it back.

thanks for being my friend. I hope this lasts forever.

80 degree weather ftw

Well hey.

Fancy running into you here.

Okay, maybe not.

stalker ;]

So here's the deal

I feel like talking, sooo I'll tell you what I've been up to :]

Yesterday, thursday I went to my film making class for a second day.

We're so behind in work. and the middleschoolers like taking over alot.

Now, I know I have alot to learn

And I'm not the best decision maker.

But when people try to take over a "group" thing, it really makes me mad.

But I'm more easy going on people than I should be sometimes.

I know it's cool to be well mannered, but when someone's constantly telling you you're wrong

that's when you have to defend yourself.

Although I don't. I just sit back and complain, not really taking action

but probably annoying them so...mission accomplished.

Our teacher fell asleep during class.

It was weird lol

Then I went home with my friends Jessica and Cassie.

I had kinda brought up the plan to go to her house the night before

and mentioned it to my friend Keith that he should go over there if I went.

I knew Jess was in need of some fun.

So after I got there and played around a while, Keith and Isaac came over.

We went to the dock at Whitmore Lake. which is always fun.

Shortly after that, we went to the icecream place. It seemed like it took forever to get there, because I'm so lazy. I need to get out and walk more apparently, haha

We had some fun yesterday. I love hanging out with them. Although sometimes I'm more quiet, because I haven't known Keith and Isaac that long and it takes me a while to really get to know someone. But I do just fine, I believe.

Then today I went to the Greenfield Village with a group of my friends.

We took off from the parents and basically acted crazy the rest of the day. Of course I picked up the first thing I could grab to wear this morning. All black. 80 degree weather. I'm so not used to hot weather yet. so that was pretty bad, but I managed.

It had some nice breezes. and we took some pretty cool pictures.

Apparently I have a little captain in me. haha

And that's my bestfriend Hannah. Now, I have alot of bestfriends.

But she's different from so many people I've met. She used to be quiet and stand in the corner-ish. But ever since I became her friend she came out of her shell and she's been a little nut case ever since.

I realized today that no matter how much I physically and verbally abuse her, I love her to death.

She's so amazing. and she's beautiful. I mean look at her. But she's still retarded xD

I came home and put on some shorts and my swimsuit and went outside. just to be in the sun. such amazing weather today, I wish I could have done more on such a beautiful day.

I wanna go to Ann Arbor with my friends soon.

we should discuss the possibilities.

I'm done blogging for today, but thanks for reading.

Adios, until next time.

Edit:

I forgot to post a fun fact about my name.

fact #2: I used to play (and sometimes still play) this virtual world game. and my name on there was Cobra Star, on account that I like snakes. and my dog Star. people on there always called me Cobra instead of my name, even if they knew it, because they thought it was cooler.

Reintroduction

So I realized my last blog post was posted when I was running low on sleep.


and when I run low on sleep I tend to over think things and change subjects more often than usual.

So HAHA! Here I am again.

I don't plan on making this a daily blog thing. I just felt like I should reintroduce myself to this


I mean I've blogged before, but I haven't in a while. I love typing and maybe that's a curse sometimes because I tend to write mini books and throw myself out there probably more than I should xD

moving on




Right now Star is rubbing her back againest my chair
making noises. Actually I kinda like that. haha she's so cute.
I dunno where I'd be if I never got that dog when I did.
She totally changed my life and helped me in ways a human couldn't.


Have you ever wondered why people love animals, specifically dogs so much?
I think it's because of the things they don't say.
and what they don't do.



Humans are capable of destorying a person with words and actions.
Well...dogs could too but I doubt they'd do much damage when it comes to words.
Dogs look up to you like you're amazing, and go along with pretty much anything you come up with.
And when you live with me, I come up with things alot.

lol I live in a typically boring house, with tons of games, yes. but I've played them, overplayed them, and played them some more until they're unappealing to me.


So, I have my dogs to play with when I don't feel like being bothered by humans.
they're sort of my escape.

I did some shopping today.

Not so much shopping, I just went along for the ride.

It's nice to get out of the house every now and again.

In the Meijer's parking lot there was a guy who was moving carts and he stopped to take a breather leaning on a train of carts while me and my grandpa watched.

We noticed the guy fell asleep....

yeah. he fell. asleep. standing up.

it was the most amazing thing I've seen lmao

okay maybe not, but it was pretty cool.

he's like, hardcore.

I didn't have my camera. I wish I did.

Which reminds me, I got a 4 gig memory card today.

1700 picture capacity ftw :]

"My name is Cobra"

Fun fact #1: Once I was bowling with some friends. and the bowling shoe brand said "Cobra". I said "Hey, sweet" because I love snakes.

That day I bowled really awesome. 3 strikes in a row, new record for me.

Everyone changed my bowler name to Cobra that day, because I got so many strikes.

I probably have about 6 reasons why my name is Cobra. but that's one of them.

I hope you're doing well.

I can't wait for s u m m e r

Well, I'm here

Hello.
It is I, Ashley.

I'm not too sure what I'm doing here.
I know some friends that have a blogspot, so of course I followed their path.
But if they jump off a bridge, I most certainly won't follow (unless they have a bungee chord)

Before you wonder yourself to death, I'll answer your question.
My name on here is Cobra. Why?
I'm not really sure.
it has so many stories behind it.
and eventually I may just tell them all. Maybe a fun fact every blog.
look forward to it!

I've been debating off and on if I should get an account on here.
Afraid of judgement, or that I wouldn't be interesting enough for people to read my blogs.
Sometimes I have ideas of what to say but it never really comes out that way.
Maybe some friends of mine would form a new opinion about me after reading these posts.
Or maybe someone I don't know will judge me before they know half of the story.
And after giving it some thought, I realized......I don't care.
That's it. Plain and simple. I don't care.
I'm me, take it or leave it. Not everyone's going to like me, right?
of course not.
I guess that's how I've always looked at things.
Sometimes people become someone they're not without noticing it themselves.
Society forms their opinions and dumps it on everyone, telling you

"you have to be like this. or else everyone will turn on you. you'll be an outcast. no one will like you. so just listen to us, and everything will be just fine"

When the truth is, it never really is fine.
Beautiful women become people you never would have imagined.
Intellegent men will make terrible decisions and make it harder on everyone else that probably know what they're doing.
At least that's what we all seem to think.
That we know what we're doing. When in reality only about half of us actually do.
And I'll admit it. I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know why I'm here. Or why I'm talking about this.
But that's just who I am.

And I think with that, I'll conclude this little blog.
So weather you read it or not, and weather you agree with it or not.
All I ask of you, is to be you.
Don't let others make you think differently about yourself.
Because you're awesome.